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    Saturday, April 19th, 2008
    5:48 pm
    Monday, September 18th, 2006
    9:32 pm
    I never loved nobody fully
    always one foot on the ground
    and by protecting my heart truly
    I got lost in the sounds
    I hear in my mind
    all these voices
    I hear in my mind
    all these words
    I hear in mind
    all this music
    and it breaks my heart...

    suppose I never ever met you
    suppose we never fell in love
    suppose I never ever let you
    kiss me so sweet and so soft
    suppose I never ever saw you
    suppose you never ever called
    suppose I kept on singing love songs
    just to break my own fall

    just to break my fall...

    all my friends say
    that of course it's
    gonna get better...
    Saturday, August 19th, 2006
    6:44 pm
    come to this...
    www.derbymegamela.com
    Friday, June 2nd, 2006
    6:26 pm
    I’m writing this to you from my little spot in the garden. I’m under what I’ve decided is my favourite bit of sky; or one of them at least. This is the bit of garden I can see from my room and it always seems sunny, and there’s this massive tree that all the sunlight filters through til it makes those dappled patterns on the grass that I love so much (the patterns not the grass)
    Technically I’m revising, but it’s not going brilliantly. I’m just sat here wishing a few certain people were here.
    Just got off the phone with some woman in London, choosing the options for my taster course, which languages I want to do and what film studies I want to do. That’s the week after next. I have exams next week, which I am incredibly under-prepared for, and it’s entirely my own fault. Never mind. I have 2 courses, I wanted to do 3, but one was full. So now I have the Tuesday at Royal Holloway and the Thursday at SOAS, and I’m going to do a bit of Arabic. That should be cool. I stay at my aunty’s house, and get the tube by myself and go to uni and do other grown up things which I’m rather excited about 
    This is after I get back from Hungary. I land in London and just stay there rather than returning to Derby with mum. We’re not getting on v well at the moment, but I don’t think I care, which isn’t the best attitude ever, but I’ve got so many other things making me the happiest I’ve been in a long long time.
    We go to Hungary literally once I’ve finished my exams. Hectic but cool.
    On the Friday of that week, after the taster courses me and Alex are going to take a trip to see Warwick all being well. We both want to go there and if that ends up happening, that’d be mint 
    Yesterday my sister got married, which is rather exciting. I got the train to Chesterfield – am getting a bit good at this gadding about on trains malarkey. Such a suitcase kid.
    We got Nathon (yes with an ‘o’) and dropped him at Jane’s house. Then Jane realised she’d left her wedding shoes at our house, which amused me a fair bit, cos knowing my Father he’d have sold them. And for about a fiver.
    Then Jane and I went to Baslow, and checked ourselves and copious amounts of pink lemonade into the hotel. Then we found Helen n Jo, at the pub, no less, and waited around for Jane’s mother. Naturally she was late and we were starving. Then we had our pretentious £65 meal, which I objected to (socialist rant) mainly cos the choice for vegetarians was shit and I hated every course. My plate emptied though, with my dad’s ex wife managing to eat most of my meal and her’s combined. Then we had puddings (but obviously they gave us a strawberry thing with strawberry foam – very surreal I know – and these really thin caramelised bits of strawberry which intrigued us rather a lot). Mine was the chocolatiest thing available. And Jane had this thing called “a taste of banana” which also amused me rather a lot, cos obviously bananas are so rare not many people have had a taste of one. And she had a thin banana slice thing with hers. Cos they intirued us we asked the lady about them, and apparently they cut the fruit on a mandolin, but obviously I thought the woman meant mangel. As in those clothes things, and I had visions of one of the waiters rolling bananas through a mangel. Then they sugar coat them and put them in the oven for a bit.
    The wedding was better than I thought.
    What else…There was the ball. Which was also better than I thought it would be. And Matt Gadsby treated myself and Helen to a look up his kilt. He does rugby, so that could have been a lot worse hehe.
    Talia and I thought the food was shit, mine tasted of wotsits and her’s was just, well, green.
    The soup tasted like warmed up orange juice and looked like fake tan/hayley’s face.
    Everyone looked lovely though, as you can observe here; www.dhsphoto.org – go on links and click leaver’s ball. 2006 obviously, athough 2004 is there for no apparent reason.
    OH highlight of the ball = me getting eyeliner on my dress, having a mad panic, and my parents solving the problem as only Asians know how – by putting tippex on it. Nice. I was ill that day and when I heard them discuss it I thought I was delirious, clearly not. Was ill for the next few days, and felt too shitty to go to Nafs party or to Richard’s on Sunday. I saw his brother when I went to town and he shouted at me for not going and for other things we shall not go into. Upshot of that was, we’re going to the RHCP gig together – I keep managing to acquire people for that gig. Oops.
    Saw Alex on Tuesday, and that was lovely of course, managed to buy a new top which I am totally bumming, and I wore it today to lunch. Which we had at the Buddhist temple no less. Mine was really nice, but mum’s was shitty, and inedible. So she was in no mood to walk around the grounds, so I might take Smalex and go there sometime.
    Other stuff has been fun recently – mine and Karmens ‘spontaneous’ trip to Nottingham. The evening at Helen’s which I proper enjoyed, where Nim told a story where James’ Greenhowe’s mum rang her mum and a misunderstanding led to Nim’s mother spazzing because “she didn’t want to buy a greenhouse”.
    Kerry bumpkin and I have plans for a Johnny Depp marathon and getting her ear pierced when she gets back from Download and that is going to be immense.
    That would be about all I guess. In very little detail obviously. Cos I’m a bit crap at updates.
    Thursday, June 1st, 2006
    10:42 pm
    10:22 pm
    Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
    2:32 am
    Sunday, February 26th, 2006
    8:43 pm
    see now this is why i love karmi.....

    :

    lol the worst time, was wen her parents put her on her final warnin and she got totally wasted...

    she was covered in sick from head to toe ( her own sick) but she thought someone had thrown up on her

     

    and she was like 'i need to clean up this mess' and started mopping the floor with her head

    then her dad picked her up

    and lou was tryin to help her sober up by feeding her bread.....in her ear

     (i was passed out)

    i dnt remember much but i remember seein nofi covered in sick sitting on a chair laughin to herself

    all this was before 10 pm

    go us

    i passed out around 7 lol

    i dnt plan to repeat tht again

    ppl thought i was dead

    apparently ppl were tryin to wake me up, but i just got up bout an hour later walked to the kitchen and got myself a drink

    i had a nice nap on the sofa

    but we were havin vodka shots and beer and stuff, then i got vodka in my eyes lol

    and i spose tht did it

    lol i sorta just threw the contents of the shotglass over my face

    i was a bit tipsy by then

    vicky turned up drunk

    and nofi was well on her way

     

    Thursday, February 16th, 2006
    12:27 am



    ok pollage for haji.
    guess how old the above chica is. 
    thaaaaaaankee

    x

    Monday, February 13th, 2006
    7:38 pm
    anna

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    caption competition!
    3:52 pm

    randomness )

    Sunday, February 12th, 2006
    9:13 pm
    omg i have major updatage to do
    lets see
    friday was cross country but really who gives a crap what happened
    friday night went to dinner with agi n alan
    and saw dandan. who is so adorable it's untrue.
    and agi is pregnant again we hink with twins :)
    and we spent the evening planning what we're going to do when we go to stay with them in summer (they live in hungary)
    and it was plejj cos me and agi had a v nice chat, cos she happens to have the sweetest soul ever, and we jus sat there chatting while dan dan pushed all the buttons on those gambling things that i can't remember the name of...which was amusing, cos he's only 2 and there was a massive sign saying no under 18s.
    and then from there i went to nim's house
    which was incredibly fun, cos it reminded me of the times i used to spend with phoebe n reene n saira and i suppose jess...when we used to have sleepovers and go out to dinner.
    cos we used to gossip..which we did at nims
    and talk about important things and religion and stuff....like we did at nim's.
    so it was really lovely and i realised how byootiful helen really is. i knew she was pretty but i just relised how much so the other night. in fact all nim's mates are beautiful, cos they have such goodness inside.
    and then we watched notting hill.
    and i stayed over even though i wasn't supposed to.
    next day everyone left and it was just me n naomi and we had a nice chat with the calling playing in the background, which is how things should be :)
    then i came home, put on make up and fell out the house got onto the us (after having waited for ages with nothing to do but watch these 2 chavs have a spitting competition- they really need to die)
    and met kerry and her friend ambi who i dont kno but got on like a house on fire with
    and kerry got her ear done and it looks fkin ace
    although it took her bloody hours to get herself to do it
    and we had lots of girly chats and i ate that hot cross bun that i'd been craving since like friday cos of emily livesey haha
    and for pure amusement we txt my mum again askin if i could get my nose done like we did last time
    and she called me to yell at me like she did last time
    and i had her on loudspeaker
    and it was piss funny
    "if you get it done i will move out. i dont like this influence kerry's having on you"
    haha
    and we went to haze and showed the girl with 14 piercings kerry's rook....cos she's ace and majorly mutilated (as my father would say) and now she wants her rook doing
    then in the evening i went to see omid djalili
    who was incredibly funny
    his support was a bit wank. but the best thing he did was to get 4 frisbees out and jus pelt them round the assembly rooms.
    oh and this guy from the landau forte engineering team was there
    and he saw me and i saw him
    and i almost dies cos his team is the one that we yelled a LOT of abuse at and i had a little bit of a fight with :) cos i'm cool like that.
    i'm also really cool cos i'm addicted to that dolly parton song jolene
    joleeeeeene joleeeneeeeeeeeee please don't take my maannnnnnnn
    which i was singin once and was rather amused by how proud my dad was of me knowing that song. cos he used to like it when he was younger....oh dear. he's usually quite cool
    but look who's talking!
    anyway. yeah omid djalili was well funny. and ben text me during it which was nice cos i haven't spoken to him in ages. which is because all he is capable of talking about is nicki
    and pally jus sent me a random text saying love youuuu
    which was also lovely.
    this entry is well odd but oh well.
    and then today i woke up late
    which was good
    because at nims everyone woke up at half 7. how pathetic is that. haha.
    anyway so today we went to birmingham
    which was good and i really should have visited my cousin;s grave but i didn't have time and i hate doing it anyway.but i spent time with my aunty which is the most important thing
    me and dad went to town and i went to the art gallery
    which was very cool cos the paintings were modern...and they had a random jewellery exhibition
    and some islamic expressionist artwork which was really nice to see.
    and they had a painting of some penguins. which reminded me of that bit in mary poppins and amused me lots.
    and they had gaughin and pisarro and henry moore. and i'm sad and i like dolly parton and henry moore.
    then we went for tea and i started to get v bored cos they were talkin business.
    and then we went back to masi's house and watched curly sue
    which was one of my fave childhood films so i was a it nostalgiafied.
    i didnt get to see all of it though so now i'm a it deprived.
    and then alex text me from ireland to say he was missing me haha aw
    andddddd karmen invited me ice skating
    and i'm going town on tuesdayy and then to chazz's house
    which is gonu be ace
    cos we are going to catch up on EVERYTHING.
    :D:D
    and yeah i really need to shut up now
    i'll do a separate photo entry

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    Current Music: Don't Speak - No Doubt
    Thursday, February 9th, 2006
    5:45 pm
    this is just an update for the dake of it.
    i have lots in my head bu nothing you'd like to hear.
    x
    Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
    7:07 pm
    Sunday, January 29th, 2006
    2:56 pm

    bloody thing deleted my entry.

    gist of my day with alex then:

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    haha helen that quiz has got desperado in it. and ali drunk - how amusingly innappropriate
    woop
    Saturday, January 28th, 2006
    12:03 am
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    5:03 pm


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    please ignore my uber grossness.



    but abbas wants me to do a poll to see whether i should get my nose done for real (just comments cos real polls = payage)



    kthx



    xx




     

    Monday, January 16th, 2006
    10:53 pm
    general survey
    am going with kerry to get her ears done again next weekend n i randomly want to get somethin done too
    any suggestions?
    school permitting
    i'm thinking top ear - ring/hoop thing possibly?
    be honest.
    i think i'm just feelin rather hole-less.
    cleo come with and get ya ears done so you can wear your xmas present!

    Current Mood: happy
    Current Music: Globes and Maps - Something Corporate.
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